NEW status?!

alhamdulillah to infinity :)
Its official! My status..changed!

as a mukminah?
as a good daughter?
as a teacher?
as a member of Gryffindor? erk. =.=

ouh well,
Im now officially engaged to someone I never spoke to >__<

well, it was all unexpected..
I didnt plan I wanna get engaged by early this year since I dont have anyone yet(before)
my mother was about to set me up with my relative on my baba's side.
I was panicked when my sister informed me. I was afraid.
afraid of my journey and future commitment for my dakwa activities
afraid of having a person who unable to understands my nature.
yes, in other word..FREAKED out!

I dont know who to tell(human).
I called my foster mother..since I dont have anyone to turn to.
I explained my situations and emotions
Obviously, Im PANICKED.
=0

About few days after I told her. around 6a.m. in the morning,
as I woke up to perform my subr prayer..
I received a text from her.
Informed me that someone she knows interested on me =.=
i was like..seriously?!
CONFLICT.
the news was not soothing at all!
I feel tight. surrounded by conflicts.
it was like breathing with limited air supply =/

all I can do is..Istikharah. keep on prayin n prayin...
and alot of putting everything on god, allahu allah!

later after lots of istikarah(s)
Well, i began to take a hold onto myself.
I feel wiser.
about a week later, my foster mother asked me whether I accept it or not.
n Im confident for a 'Yes'.

haha! XD

so, continue with more n more istikarah(s), (better to do it straight 3 month)
n I can't see anything bad stopping me from my decision
and alhamdulillah, I had made my choice.

Now, we are getting to know each other, still no dating :)
Well, i want my first date will be after nikah(legally married)!

now, frankly im seeing a clearer view for the marattibul amal:
always purify our intention to do it for the sake of Allah S.W.T!

Well, as quoted, good women for good men!
(u can refer the quran as an excellent reference if u aint believin me)
as a conclusion,
you dont need to much focus on finding your soul mate,
it is not a huge priority in life as you were born for all the other right reasons!
If fated he/she is the one.no matter what u do@did still it will be the same person who will soon be an important person in your life.
fated? no one can stop it as they r destined to be with each other~

THUS,
Do focus on our efforts n contributions toward the benefits of mankind.
Indeed, its a priority!
Live ur life as a mukminin@mukminah to the fullest
May Allah bless yll always :)

hoping he will guide me so, I will accompany him to jannah, ameen.

UniSZA-nian. OFFICIAL!

assalamualaikum! peops

oh my it has been ages..

for ALMOST TWO YEARS?! oh my!

im aging, n it seems like this blog is too dusty

its a really pathetic apology to dearest reader since i have not update anything for almost 2 years i guess. well, thank you for reading my views in this blog **appreciated!**

well, makes me think of remembers something...

oh yes, the fundamentals of dakwa..

i give out something good and I will not expect anything in return since anybody can be a daie(preacher) and a mad'u(victim of the preachers, =.= uh oh)

got lots of thing happened to me for the past 2 years

maybe because i am too attached to my twitter and instagram account ^__^

maybe... >,<

oh well, something happened to me. yes, successfully finished my matriculation program :)
my main course is bio-physics-chemistry
and now im continuing my degree in computer science!
it seems that I have to be attach to baba..collaborate with him yea..IT stuff :)
alhamdulillah!

I was too excited and nervous at the same time the moment im receiving a text only introduces me to dc10 code with no university name contained.
frankly, it was like a struck of thunder wondering since the online method is not available.

suffocated. not sure where i am headed to, rush to the restroom n yes i took my ablution
it was around 10-11 a.m. in the morning almost noon, nothing crosses my mind except for the best to be fated by god.
i prayed. dhuha prayer. done.
at that time, daily routine at home, i am doing my chores. holding a broomstick..
continuing my duty as the main maid after my former bibik went back to Sumatra, marrying her fiancee.

all i can do is all zikr.
why? reflex? because of too anxious? or hoping for a bonus?

until the clock tick strike to 12a.m.
i rushed to my macbook. online.

at first i was mesmerized by my university's name. UniSZA. it sounds fabulous, contemporary i guess.
i had no knowledge on my university's location, so i googled.
n yes, my jaw dropped!
it was like a bomb! booming in my eyes as I can only focus on the state.
WHAT? TERENGGANU?!

i was like oh my, i was supposed to be blessed n thankful..
i remind myself, for every events, affairs, it aint happen for no reasons
so, im okay with it, but my parents? not!

they want me to transfer to IIUM@UIAM, nearby my former school and my home.
I can feel the tension on my baba. I know how much he will be worry when I am not around him.
Still, he looked at me like I am his little girl. sobs.

lastly, he agreed to send me to unisza without exchanging to any other campus nearby my home as one of my mom's mate convinced her that UniSZA is a good place :)

well, alhamdulillah to infinity! UniSZA is indeed a peaceful place
the Masjid is beautiful and before this known as KuSZA and UDM n now its UniSZA!

with long distance walk to class, floods, rains, friends, n major is the knowledge and experiences gained and will be gained here :)

its a place with lots of muslimah for FKI, the islamic contemporary faculty. i can see lots of niqabis. which is extra peace lol

hope I will survive here, with codings n softwares to be involve with :)
I hope for the same to you guys too.
let us all reflect this wise reminder lets be a successor on both akhirah and dunya :)

may Allah bless y'll fi dunya wal akhirah and provide y'll ease in any affairs afflict, ameen :)

Happy Ibadah!